As the Sabbath begins this week it is a much different environment than last Friday - last week the warmth of the fire helped drive out the chill in the air, this week the A/C is on pushing back against the 80 degree temperatures outside.
As the Sabbath begins this week it is a much different environment than last Friday - last week the warmth of the fire helped drive out the chill in the air, this week the A/C is on pushing back against the 80 degree temperatures outside.
The past two weeks I have attempted to begin the Sabbath by pausing to contemplate some aspect of my week reviewing how God has spoken to me in some quiet way as I start the day He has set aside to fellowship with us. This week was a busy week and as a result I had another appointment that left me rushing to get home before sunset that left me falling over the edge into Sabbath instead of ushering it in quietly. I have contemplated often how Lisa's and my dog Pogo illustrates my rushed relationship with God. I may explore that more in depth in another post at another time, but today is Valentines day so I want to explore that concept a little today.
Last week I mentioned our dog Pogo and how he illustrates my often chaotic relationship with God. He is a pure bred (he was never registered but we have his pedigree papers) Australian Shepherd who came to live with us about 5 1/2 years ago when he was 1 year old. We adopted him from a family that had gotten him as a puppy for their (young adult) son. When their son joined the military they found themselves caring for a dog that unfortunately mom was allergic to - so the dog had to go! When we visited to assess the compatibility fit between him and our home we discovered that he was a very high strung, high octane animal, he had 3 speeds - off, full throttle, and warp speed. He could go from full off to bouncing off the walls in a half second.
Shortly after we moved into our house here in Texas Lisa found two concord grape vines on sale at our local Home Depot. We planted those and the next year bought four more, adding them to our "vinyard " in the back yard. Unfortunately neither of us knew anything about growing grapes! The first year they all took off sending out canes down the supporting wires we had strung along our back fence. The second year they produced a few grapes (almost enough for a single batch of jelly). The next year we got a lot of buds but not a single one matured into an edible grape. What we didn't know then is that in order for grape vines to produce grapes they need to be pruned - every year, all but 5 or 6 buds on each cane. Grape vines produce a lot of growth. First year growth is called a cane, older growth is called a cordon. It is only canes that produce grapes - too many cordons sap the energy from the vine, robbing it of its ability to produce grapes! If you want to produce grapes you have to get rid of the old cordons every year! Relying on what grew last year won't produce any fruit!
This week has been a wild and crazy week with lots of twists and turns leading to some thought provoking moments. At one point while talking with a friend about how both Lisa and I were feeling God's leading regarding certain aspects of our lives they asked a very direct and probing question, "If things don't work out with the plan you are currently pursuing are you going to continue down this path anyway?" My answer was rather sobering - "I'm not sure I have that much faith!" That answer prompted some serious contemplation over the next 24 hours. Thinking of the father whose son was possessed by a demon and the disciples could not cast it out. When the father asked Jesus to cast it out Jesus' response was "If you believe, all things are possible." The fathers response was mine that day, "I believe, help my unbelief." (See Matthew 9:14-25 for the story.) My problem is I want to have all my ducks in a row. I don't just want them in a row, I want to know where they are going and how they are going to get there! That is not faith, that is certainty and I struggle balancing faith with certainty.
At the beginning of the current school year one of the professors in the Business division at Southwestern Adventist University announced they would be retiring at the end of the school year. Our search process began by identifying what our "ideal" candidate will look like - the degree(s) they have completed, the skills they posses, the experience they have gained, their relationship to the Adventist church, and the classes they are capable of teaching. Over the past several months we have received many applications for the position but none of them have met our ideal qualifications. I have learned over my 12 years teaching in higher education that this phenomenon is not uncommon - most job posting for professor positions have an "ideal" candidate description and a "will consider" candidate description. The ideal is what your "perfect" candidate will look like and the "will consider" is what you will settle for.
A number of years ago while I was working at Home Depot I was being trained to manage outside deliveries. Each day we would check the order log to see what deliveries were scheduled for the next day, pull all the product, and organize it so when the delivery driver showed up the next day it could be loaded on the truck. One of the most demanding responsibilities was operating the forklift to load the trucks. Since most orders were small and the delivery drivers would make several stops on each run we would have to load the orders in a way that would align them with the delivery schedule ensuring that drivers had access to the correct products at each delivery stop. Sometimes we had to place pallets touching each other end-to-end in order for it all to fit on the length of the truck, and we ALWAYS had to fit them precisely side-to-side so the pallets wouldn't hang over the side of the truck. Jeff worked with me for several weeks teaching me how to load precisely and operate the forklift safely. Many mornings he would stand beside the truck observing my efforts and giving me pointers on how to load more efficiently. I remember well the morning I came into work and Jeff informed me that I was on my own that day. I was a little nervous but Jeff made a statement that really struck home - "I've got your back!" He said it mater-of-factly - "I've got you covered, you can do this, but I'm right around the corner if you need my help." He was sure I could handle it but just wanted me to know that if I got into a bind he was there to bail me out. Later, when I was training other members of the outside delivery team I would use those same words. "I've got your back!" as I encouraged them as they learned.